I am talking to one who may still be dead in his trespasses and sins as he attempts to win God's approval through works and not by God's unmerited favor.
My observation is that you have exchanged on worldview of works for a different worldview of works of which neither are connected to God's gracious, unmerited favor.
You couch your words carefully and twist scripture artfully, yet the core of your soul is not made alive by God's grace. This concerns me about you, Arsenios, for I fear you have never known the grace of God.
Thank you for your prayers, my Brother...
I do not seek God's approval by works...
Yet I fear offending Him by bad works...
For when I was dead in trespasses, He gave me Life Eternal...
Palpably and ontologically as the condition of my existence...
This when I had turned from this life and looked only at death...
God is everything to me...
This world is very little...
I do try to be carefully accurate with words...
I speak from first hand experience...
God used the Bible to show me that I am a Christian...
After walking with Him 14 years...
I am not a normal Christian example...
Most find God in their Christian walk...
I, not seeking God, found Him...
I, in a rage for healing...
Sought only the healing of my tormented soul...
And found it only by failing to heal and giving up...
Arsenios