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Not in my opinion.
Nor do I think @Lucian Hodoboc out of line for asking to have his thorn removed (or even being angry, to be blunt about it … I would likely be angry in similar circumstances).
I am only pointing out that … from the limited view from the outside looking on … that “anger” has given way to “bitterness” and “asking” has morphed into “mocking”. As a former atheist, I can completely understand rejecting God. As an atheist convinced of the truth of Christianity, I find disbelieving what I now KNOW to be real inconceivable. I just think honesty (to oneself) is the best choice forward and claiming to be a “questioning christian” if one has moved on to “mocking disbelief” serves no useful purpose.
It's not hard to see how anger, over an extended period, can turn into other things.
Since you mentioned Paul's comment about his thorn, he also wrote that he received an answer even if it wasn't the answer he wanted. I wonder what Paul might have thought had he not received any answer at all, if he was just left to draw whatever conclusions seemed appropriate based on nothing more than silence.
You describe yourself as a former atheist who now refers to what you know to be real. Imagine someone coming at this from a different perspective - perhaps someone always raised in the church who never faced particular doubts (or, worse, who was told that asking questions was silly and expressing doubt was "lacking faith" or some other garbage kids are sometimes told) only to then find that what they were taught didn't actually pan out in their lives. It's not hard to see how their life experience would cast a lot of doubt on the stories they were told as a child.
Throw in some of the intellectual dishonesty that sometimes appears within Christian circles (e.g. "The Bible can be trusted because, well, because the Bible says it can be trusted) and it can very easily look like there's nothing more than endless circular arguments and appeals to a self-referencing text. If something looks internally consistent but not very consistent with what is seen outside of it (as is apparently the case for Lucian) it doesn't necessarily look like it's very valuable. When even the internal consistency appears to flake at the edges it's easy to see why people are inclined to disbelieve, whatever they once believed.
Of course intellectual dishonesty works on both sides, and there's no point looking for answers if you don't actually want to know the answers.