What was it that changed your mind from traditional Christian beliefs?
I read the Bible and put its promises to the test. The results were almost the opposite of what I was expecting.
The promises of healing resulted in my health getting worse and worse. The promises of wisdom resulted in my mental health and cognitive abilities becoming more and more impaired.
The promises of seeking and finding, asking and receiving, knocking and having the door open, resulted in years of confusion and suffering in which God was as silent as a brick wall.
The promises that God would provide resulted in no provision for the financial stability and familial help that I required to have the surgeries that would have improved my quality of life.
Well, maybe it takes time, I said to myself, after all, Jesus did tell people to be persistent in prayer. But the years passed and I kept seeking God with honesty and hope, but the things only seemed to be going downhill (with some minor exceptions).
And all these while almost every single Christian I've talked to online was gaslighting me with platitudes and theodicies about how God never promised us an easy life. Yeah, right! As if I hadn't read the Bible times and times again. The promises are there, written clearly.
The only thing I have to say is: I know that God is real and I hope He gives me a good explanation in the afterlife because my experience in this life so far has been miserable.