Sorry to see that snerf.. sometimes our life choices are just rubbish that we live to regret but don't hold on to it forever it just make you feel bitter and then we cant move on from that point .. Thanks for being my friend it means a lot .. you must have been a baby 30 years ago ..
Good evening to everyone hope your saturday is good for you..
Thx, needed to reread to make sure which choices you may have referred to.
Okay got it. In context, referring to thirty+ years ago, I entered my first and last relationship, but it was one that neither one of us should have entered, Im guessing.
My regrets are that instead of getting right and make the best of things, I went on a downward spiral, (drank too much) By the time I got working on that, it was over and she was gone.
I regret being the kind of person I was and the pain I caused, and yes, losing someone, (actually five someones) plus other family by extension. But I thank God by His grace He kept me from really harming them, things could have been much worse I suppose, but thats no excuse, but I pray they got past things quickly, I really dont know anything about them at all since parting 26 years or so ago. (I tried in the beginning, but a combination of rejection and bad advice let it all slip away).
But what Im in now is almost the exact opposite, only more painful to the heart and numbing to the mind, because I could see no good reason for it. Sure we've had ups and downs in a very short time, but recently had everything put behind and had agreed to leave it there and move ahead together towards each other and see what the Lord would have us do.
It was a bit of nervous excitement on my end, but hope and joy, but then to have the 'proverbial football' pulled away out of the blue, (again...it's gotten to be the story of my life), has got me back to thinking ..... don't believe in or hope for ANYthing.
But I'll never regret the decision to love someone, that's not where my regret is. It's more regret that I'm not a better person, and I can't be perfect. It's funny, but it seemed like there was more patience, understanding, mercy and forgiveness back in the days when everything I did was horribly wrong, but now that that's all behind, and I believe in Jesus and am trying to do the right thing, and have faith and hope and joy and yes, love, be at the forefront, these past few years at least, it seems there's no mercy, not an inch of room for error, no matter what I try to do, to do something right, I'm misjudged or it's misconstrued, and I'm condemned,
but anything I may do wrong, even no matter how small, it's magnified and held against me like the unforgiveable crime of the century. And the enemy is having a good laugh about it I'm sure, looking for another dart to throw. Let it laugh, though ..... It won't be forever. I just have more regrets to pile in the sack, and try to figure out where to go from here. God bless you, ~Jo~ , thanks for caring.