YES YOU DO.
You say we don't have to obey to get saved and not to stay saved.
NOW STOP WITH THE DENIAL of what you are saying and doing.
Yes or no: Do we have to obey Jesus and repent of sins and have faith that his blood washes away our sin to get saved?
Obedience and repentance doesn't CAUSE Faith, without Faith no one would care to repent because their heart is wicked, without faith no one could be obedient to the Lord, are you saying that the unfaithful can obey and repent?
Can someone have Faith and NOT obey Gods command? The Bible says no.
The act of repentance comes from accepting God through Faith by His grace and acting on it because the Spirit convicts you to, without Faith the very word 'Sin' is obsolete to the non believer. That moment your heart is convicted of Sin it's because God is renewing your heart and has called you to repentance. Paul received revelation, I however received the gospel and listened to it but didn't obey until one day I felt a very very strong conviction in my heart and all of a sudden everything I read in the Bible all came together and I had that "aha" moment of clarity and repented there on the spot. I still lacked fellowship however, remember that when two or more people are gathered in Jesus name the Lord is present among them. Having fellowship with brothers and sisters in Faith was what God wanted for ME, you don't like church I assume, but if I may suggest that you find an assembly with Gods people and connect with them, being left on your own is not so wise imo because you are struggling here and I feel for you brother, you need connection because your social skills lack and I mean no offence, I was the same way I'm just trying to help.
Pray and ask God to send his faithful to you and they WILL come, I did exactly this and low and behold I found myself being prayed over by dozens of people in the middle of the road in town square, no joke either, that day changed my life forever.
Ask and ye shall receive.