I will be interested if you would post summaries, because I don't spend a lot of time here. The reason is that God has called me and made me a published author of many books in my retirement from being a pastor, for which he keeps giving me ideas to fulfill in writing books for his honor.
That's exciting for you to feel God moving you that way. I'll start at the beginning of the investigation:
As my career and investigation skills developed, I tried to be thorough and unbiased in my analysis and conclusions. I approached my investigation into the Bible and story of Jesus in a similar manner. I was out to find the truth and at the end of my investigation I would be certain enough of my results to firmly stand behind them. I would have ‘faith’ in whatever I determined whether it be that I found the Bible and Jesus to be the truth or I found them to be fiction.
Very early in my analysis I found that believing in the Bible and the story of Jesus was a package deal—I could not believe in one or the other because they are intimately intertwined. The Old Testament (OT) pointed to a Messiah from God and the New Testament (NT) described how Jesus fulfilled the requirements for being the Messiah. I had a circular argument to deal with. The Bible pointed to Jesus and Jesus proved the Bible. In other words, one could not be true without the other—unless the world was still waiting for the Messiah to arrive. The Jews may subscribe to this belief, but it didn’t make sense to me. Why would God wait so long to provide a Messiah he promised thousands of years ago? Since waiting for a Messiah didn’t make sense, I concluded that if Jesus wasn’t the Messiah, there was no sense in considering the rest of the Bible to be proof of God’s presence in the world.
There are four Gospels in the NT of the Bible that present everything we know about Jesus. It didn’t take me long in the mid-1980s to find that the NT presented a lot of data about Jesus, but the sources of the data were questionable at best. As an example, the following summaries of the origins of each of the four Gospels is presented from my NIV study Bible:
Matthew: “Although the first Gospel is anonymous, the early church fathers were unanimous in holding that Matthew, one of the 12 apostles, was its author.”
Mark: “Although there is no direct internal evidence of authorship, it was the unanimous testimony of the early church that this Gospel was written by John Mark…”
Luke: “The author’s name does not appear in the book, but much internal and external evidence points to Luke.”
John: “The author is the apostle John, ‘the disciple whom Jesus loved.” … “He was prominent in the early church but not mentioned by name in this Gospel—which would be natural if he wrote it, but hard to explain otherwise.”
The Gospels may thoroughly describe the teaching, healing and famous miraculous works of Jesus, but I found the origins of the documentation to be questionable. Reading those summaries from the NIV it’s obvious why the comment “you just need to have faith” is so prominently mentioned as a requirement to be a Christian.
The stories of Jesus referred to as the Gospels reek of uncertainty. If you search through the Gospel history and trail of documentation, you will not find a connection between Jesus’ disciples and the early church fathers. Religious leaders and scholars supporting the Christian faith attempt to build a case, but it is an extremely weak one at best. Having anonymous Gospels with authors who are validated and verified by ‘early church fathers,’ is another way of saying there isn’t evidence to prove the story of Jesus to be true.