It makes me feel small I guess? lol
Its dumb I know, it's been with me as a little kid, I would ride the ferris wheel and looking down from the top never scared me but when I looked up at the machine itself (from the bottom) it would freak me out. I was afraid of rides maybe??
Now today if I am in a parking lot I can't look up at the broad sky especially if the sun or moon is directly above me, I feel like it has a personality and is superior to me.
Gosh its strange, i never tell anyone this.
I have never been in an airplane (a small one last year, i wasnt afraid tho cause I was looking down).
Even in a tall warehouse or venue I dont look up at the beams holding it together, maybe its a trust issue in that case (not always just the sky)
Looking down I feel well grounded, looking up I see no ground haha.
Oh! Btw i used to have dreams all the time that gave me nightmares, I would fall UP! i would jump and never come back down and just keep going up and up and up until I would wake up
I had a dream about a month ago, I was in a high rise but very small (room wise) tower and all the windows on all sides were broad, I was above the clouds in a psychiatrist office and I was on the floor in the middle scared to death with my eyes closed and in a fetal position, the psychiatrist never got to me and just left me there in complete fear and panic.