For the past 2 weeks some issue is bothering me i really don't what it is and i can't find a solution for this. I am okay for sometime and suddenly a bothersome wave hits me and i am lost totally. Kindly pray that God helps me and strengthens me.
Get suicidal thoughts but for my parents and brother sake i will surely won't do that.
My Brother, you will NOT like the putrid blob of stinking slime you will be entered into AFTER you commit suicide!
Do not be afraid to suffer...
Offer your suffering, whatever it is, for the sake of those whom you love...
Are you praying morning and night?
I can give you a Psaltic prayer rule of daily prayers that prays the Psalms each week...
Are you praying when the wave hits?
Do you start praying right away when it hits?
Do you know what to pray when it hits?
O Lord Jesus Christ...
Son of God...
Have Mercy on me...
The sinner...
Over and over and over without ceasing until the wave passes...
Demons want that wave to destroy you...
And to devour you...
You are in a war to the death...
Retreat is not an option...
God bless your struggle!
Arsenios
Here is a page to begin your acquisition of the daily rule of prayer for the Psalter:
https://www.orthodoxprayer.org/Psalms-Psalter.html
Our numbering is slightly different from what you may be used to...
