Masochistic Personality Disorder?

[Naiwen]

I’m a masochist, like you find comfort in my pain and suffering. Thence why my whole life, been having issues with my period and depression on and off in life. You wonder I focus so much on what’s wrong with me in life and with this world and others around me? It’s because I’m a natural masochist and always have been, now not to be confused with the sexual disorder since I’m an asexual aromantic.

 

[Andrew]

I’m a masochist, like you find comfort in my pain and suffering. Thence why my whole life, been having issues with my period and depression on and off in life. You wonder I focus so much on what’s wrong with me in life and with this world and others around me? It’s because I’m a natural masochist and always have been, now not to be confused with the sexual disorder since I’m an asexual aromantic.

Like finding appreciation or value in "depression"?
For me it makes the happy moments stand out more but I also find comfort in knowing that Christ endured more than I could ever imagine.. I mean to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders is a predicament that only Christ could fully endore and overcome and through His Passion for the sake of believers in His Name I feel humble, optimistic and empathetic even in my darkest hours.