See no light consumed by darkness and shadow no way out
@Holy999, it sounds as though you're depressed. Get psychological help to find out what you're really depressed about, perhaps from your childhood. Then, share your feelings honestly with God in prayer many times and seek his peace until he gives it to you.
If the person you go to does not help you, find another one who will. You're on my prayer list. Your friend, Bruce Leiter.
Php 4:6 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
Php 4:7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
