I too was ABhorrently-USED as a ten years old
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I have no-wish to go around TOPPING pedophiles
I have suffered from Haemorrhoids ever-since
and still have a repeat prescription at the pharmacy for XYLOPROCT
I have
No-Trouble sleeping Day or, Night
We are all different_ 'clinical depression' can be a killer
It is generally-accepted, that it can takes as long to recover, as it took to become ill
After, that incident in my garden shed (2004)
My then spouse, told everyone we knew that I, was 'off my head'
and needed to visit a psychiatrist. Not being able to handle that (accept it as true)
I went to see my doctor who then prescribed anti-depressants for me
I queried my being unbalanced with him and he made me an appointment with psychiatrist
~
After a two hour session with the psychiatrist, I was told, that I had been open with her
and she felt I was handling 'my problems logically and sympathetically' and
"I think I need to make an appointment for your wife"

When I got home she was 'all ears'
~like she was about to hear about my lobotomy appointment
"There is nothing wrong with the way I am dealing with my life, but the psychiatrist wants to make an appointment to see you"
"I'm not bloody crazy" she said "I am not going"
turning she walked into the living room door. I laughed so hard that I had to run to the bathroom
Sure! if you believe everything you are told_ you won't believe yourself
YOU, are able, to 'look-back' ~to a time before you 'got depressed' ?
and, if you keep-notes, of those reminiscences
you CAN arrive at the cause of this 'depression' which is what you need to deal with FIRST
DRAG it out into the open _ grow from it
Do Not RUN AWAY :thumbsup:
I was having my 'symptoms' treated _ and, NOT 'the cause'
Just as soon as DIVORCE was on the table....
my depression was history and no, I did not hang-myself
I obeyed the 'voice' that told me to "WAIT UNTIL MORNING"
when, just as the voice had said "THINGS, WILL BE DIFFERENT THEN" ~truly were
I'd been alone in that shed, a little after 1.30am
Deal, with the cause, handle-it, resist it, give it the disrespect that it deserves and stay well :thumbsup:
dave