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At what point do you decide to visit a new church?
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I joined a church around the time of the pandemic (the lock down started the very next week after I joined). I have not been there in about a year and a half. I feel like the music is not that good and the pastor has a tendency to repeat himself often and it feels like a waste of time to go. I have looked around some at other churches, but haven't found another church I want to join. It seems most of the churches in the area are pretty weak
Have you thought about streaming churches that are farther out?
I have sometimes watched some of them. I also sometimes take classes on bible project or biblicaltraining.comHave you thought about streaming churches that are farther out?
Streaming is all well and good but the person sitting at home streaming is never really part of the church community.
It's a way to sample what a church offers before visiting but beyond that feels like a poor substitute to actually attending church.
It gives people a chance to feel better connected to something since they no longer visit the local ones.
I left the organized church world years and years ago. I've tried a few here and there since then and it's disgusting how shallow most of them are ...stages with light shows and spotlights ...pastor gets behind the pulpit and tells a few jokes, reads a paragraph out of the newest watered down version of the Bible....take up offerings, make announcements about the 50's singles dance next Saturday ......yay. (NOT!!)
No one wants deep relationship with God or their brothers and sisters in Christ. They don't care about getting in the trenches with the hurting, the suffering, the persecuted ...just soothe their consciences and don't burst any bubbles. Pat their backs and tell them they're okay, and skip out to lunch with their clique of shallow friends, talk about fashion and hair styles ...or the fancy car they bought.
Should they encounter anyone like myself, who actually deals with harassments, punishments (persecution) for going against the cult system I was born into ...they judge, shun, give shallow and irrelevant advice ....and reject. I know .... that's been my experience in EVERY SINGLE CHURCH I have tried over the last 20+ years. It's not worth it to me.
I fellowship outside a church building with other survivors of SRA and MK ...and about 3 others who aren't survivors but aren't shallow and judgmental.
Two or three may have mentioned it on occasion, but not as a central message. Most of them were more of a popularity clique with watered down feel good (Osteen flavored) messages.So none of the churches you visited preached Christ crucified for the forgiveness of your sins?
Do you understand how SRA, MK, and DID work? Do you have an understanding of how CIA trauma based mind control was and is still used to shatter and program minds of their victims beginning in the womb? The mind splits and splits in order to survive, and as a way to protect them from going insane, those parts of the mind that hold knowledge of the trauma and cult activity were split off, and walled off behind amnesic barriers. That is how someone can go into ministry, stand behind a pulpit and preach ....and then another part that is against God can move forward at other times and abuse, and commit rital murder. I've seen it.So none of the churches you visited preached Christ crucified for the forgiveness of your sins?
Two or three may have mentioned it on occasion, but not as a central message. Most of them were more of a popularity clique with watered down feel good (Osteen flavored) messages.
The ones who seemed to have some truth still were full of mixture, and as soon as they learned of my history (a survivor of SRA/MK), I was shunned, even was walked out of an Assembly of God church and told that I didn't belong there. (My children and I were abducted, drugged, and s.xually assaulted/tortured inside our own barn, on Mother's Day ...to punish me for speaking about the cult. I went to my sisters in the church to ask for prayer support. That's why I was escorted out of the church.)
I knew God sent me there, because the pastor himself was a multigenerational victim/survivor of SRA/MK as were several church members. It was about 5 years after I was escorted out of the church that a member apologized to me and said that my testimony was valuable, needed, and that they didn't know then what they know now.
God has sent me into several churches to share bits about my testimony ...because so many churches are cult run or cult infiltrated, or have SRA/MK victims in them that are misunderstood. Sometimes, I stayed for a few years, sometimes a few months or weeks. But I have not been led back to a church in a couple of years. I'll do so when and if God leads me. Believers can assemble anywhere .... it doesn't have to be in a 501C3 building.
I don't attend church at this time because #1, it's always just a matter of time until they oust me because of what I live with. I am deprogrammed, have had so much healing ...but I still live under threat. That's something most people in churches have no understanding about, and are afraid ....or else they say it's my fault.From what I gather, you choose not to attend any other churches because you had trauma. Did you even try mainstream churches such as Lutheran?