i like smiling. Smilings my favorite.
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Elf has a signifigant meaning for me on this site, though I've never actually sat and watched the movie (was kinda waiting for that) ..... :friends:
Funny, but 1 year ago, I spent some time in a 'live video chat' while in church with someone (an Elf fan) who I was just growing to love and was pretty 'over the top' about at that moment, for the first time thinking maybe God really had brought us together, maybe there was someone for me and I could be for her, and we were a couple of ppl that He maybe gave a second (millionth?) chance to to share some love and happiness by His grace together.
Anyway, I was pretty nuts about her, (ppl who knew me knew it, and they also thought I was nuts, bc it would seem near impossible to work out, for many reasons), but even though I knew it would take time, I believed w God all things were possible, and if it's His will, it will be done, so keeping faith hope and love alive was key and I tried, but I'm a knucklehead with no experience and Im not very good at these sorts of things, and I guess I blew it big time.
Anyway, shortly thereafter I joined this site, and was on and off for a number of months, but then I stopped coming on it thru a 'virtual' self-ban or mod queue, whatever they call it ...
Then we both decided being on all chatforums in general was getting too addicting and distracting ... We needed to focus more on Jesus and each other, plus I had tons of work to do to prepare for a very exciting, if uncertain future.
But she chose another 'direction', lets say, and came back here in August...I found out about it a month later, and in September, figured oh well, I'll come back, too, but I could see the inevitable happening, she made it pretty clear she had other interests which didnt include me.
(Anyway, we didnt make it a year, and Christmas Eve this year was ... well, quite diff than last year,
to say the least, and if it werent for Jesus .......)
Anyway, her favorite movie (at least one of them, that didnt have Doris Day, lol) was Elf, and since I didnt know what to pick as a nickname here, I thought Id tie it in with another favorite 'nickname' and pick Renself, but I thought that was too 'obvious, and too soon', so I switched it to Elfrens, but that seemed LOTR-ish, and I didnt know if she'd like that, so I reversed it to Snerfle.
Unfortunately (for me, anyway) it didnt make it a year, but here's this thread about Elf started on Christmas Eve, so thats some irony, huh?
I was holding off writing this in the other thread about choosing nicknames, but there it is.
It's funny, too, but sometimes life can be as cold and hard as the ice on the lake that hotrhymez skates on, and just as cruel as a weak spot of vulnerability if you 'fall in'...
But God is good all the time, today is Christmas Day, amazing grace, Jesus saves and heals and binds up the broken-hearted, (and wow do I need Him today) He says, 'I'll never leave you or forsake you', (O S A S is true), and the Lord still works miracles everyday and it's still true with God all things are possible...He can save anyone, even a wretch like me.
Merry Christmas, everyone ... Jesus loves you.
The peace and joy and love of Christ be with you.
