I thought id wake up to something new, as Gods mercies are new every morning, but argh, no such luck. Come on...HUGE COMPLAINTS? It started out with me being personally attacked, I never filed ANY complaints, bc I dont believe in running to the principals office to cry 'im tellin on you' , I believe in handling things like a christian, ... then if someone(s) are gonna repeatedly dig at me, eventually theyre gonna get it back, only bc of certain ppl, I dont get away with it, and I get to be the one accused of wrong, (and now kicked by others, I see) (another personal attack gone public, with the typical LIKE attached, of course, how cute) (blatant personal attack)
(its not true, btw, and I dont know why she chose to hit me in public like this now, but, I loved the girl and wanted to get married, she ended it, evidently for another, but I accepted it and said repeatedly, its ok, you are free to like who you like, and I still hope we can remain friends and support each other. I always supported her and still do, and told her if she ever changes her mind about me and us, Im right here, its what Ive wanted, and anyone could certainly ask anyone that knows me, if they felt the need, its no secret, but she chose no, so, okay, so what can I do now but let it go? Funny though, I was just offered a very large and generous offer to be able to go to Holland for a visit, a rather lengthy one in fact, before years end, rather than have to wait til after winter. .... JUST LAST NIGHT!!! It floored me, and tore my heart out to have to say no thank you she ended it. I even sit here right now looking at Christmas presents I wanted to mail there right after Thanksgiving, (gotta buy and send early, it costs a fortune and takes forever for the mail to get there, its crazy), but I guess I cant even do something nice as a friend or brother in Christ anymore. I dont understand this accusation of me ruining her life, though, honest to God, Ive never left her, never turned my back on her, and I never would, she knows that, I never wanted it to end. EVER. That cant be disputed.)
Anyway, I told you Lämm, I cant produce posts that have been deleted out of thin air, ones that came in my inbox are gone, and as far as re-quotes posted in piecemeal and used out of context, forcing a person to constantly have to come back and defend themself against something they didnt say or 'its not what they meant' are all over this site in a general sense, its just the way it is, Im not even mad about it. BUT I SAID TWICE, 3TIMES NOW, it doesnt matter anymore, Ive got bigger things to deal with, my eyes were opened to certain things, and I moved past it. This isnt HUGE COMPLAINTS, I'm being asked to re-hash the same one to make it look like Im continuing it. Im not. I said it doesnt matter now, Ive got important things I have to take care of, this isnt one of them. I told you what I hoped for with this site, I posted it a few times. If the feelings arent reciprocated, theres not much I can do about it.
Im hoping everyone has a great Thanksgiving. Ive had a few things I wanted to be thankful about, and some things I wanted to give, that have been forced off the table, and its gonna be hard fighting some sadness over some things, but God is good, HIS mercies are still new every morning, HIS love endures forever, and great is His faithfulness.